Friday, July 5, 2013

Weight loss Update


So I’m down 8 lbs.  My official weigh – in is tomorrow but I know that’s what I’m down so I thought that I would just publish it.  I have been working like an animal.  On Thursday I was sooooo stiff I kept falling asleep all day.  So I have to keep working out at night b/c it makes me tired and I don’t want to be THAT tired at work.  Once I took a nap however I felt WORLDS BETTER.  I wasn’t as stiff either.  So I’m glad that my body is finally getting the workout it needs.  I have to say that this is probably the hardest that I have ever worked out when I exercise.  I pour sweat!  Which when I was doing couch to 5 K I would sweat like a fool, but this is EVERY time.  So I know it’s working.  I mean 8 lbs. in two weeks isn’t bad.  My routine takes about 40 minutes total so it’s not really even too bad as far as time either it just makes me REALLY tired. 

 

By far the worst part about trying to lose weight is the diet.  I HATE dieting and I’m not even calling this dieting.   I’m calling it tracking my calories b/c honestly I can eat whatever the hell I want, I just have to be responsible for it and when I’m out of calories I’m OUT of eating.  I have gone to bed b/c I’m hungry and I don’t want to eat.  It just sucks.  I mean I only get 1370 calories per day and when you start breaking it down it isn’t very much.   I love my coffee in the morning and that’s a MAJOR issue b/c it’s like 150 calories once I add creamer and when I’m counting calories I’m like, do I NEED this… and my tired body goes… yep yep you need to wake up in the morning… but it’s as much calories as a can of coke…  damn creamer.  But your soooooo good.  I have tired the 0 calorie coffee flavoring and it’s “okay” but it kind of adds a strange taste to it, so I’m working through that.  But that would help b/c it’s just empty calories… I hate that…  It’s all about the choices.  But at least I’m working out so maybe my body will work it off…  at least I hope!

 

When we were working out this last week we did a totally different routine and let me tell you I’m WEAK.  I’m trying to really stay positive but mercy sakes when you are supposed to do pull ups and it feels like you have bricks tied to your feet… it makes me a little sad.  I hate that I feel the way I do and have NO energy to play with the kids or want to take them to the park so I am working on changing.  It’s just a mountain to climb.  It feels SOOOOOOO far away.  I keep trying to think about all the things I will be able to say that I did once I do lose the weight but trying to stay positive is a struggle.  It’s like in my mind I’m like ‘how did I let myself get to this point’ and then at the other side I’m like ‘okay dude get it together b/c your clothes are WAY too tight.’ I know it’s about baby steps and it’s about changing my life.  Not an easy feat and I don’t want to be too hard on myself b/c that won’t get me to my goal.  I still want my clothes to start feeling really big when I put them on.  I love that feeling but I’m not to that point.  Dang it.  I know I know it’s ONLY BEEN TWO WEEKS.  But I’ve lost 8 lbs. you’d think… but it’s all stuff that has to come and it didn’t take over night to get here.  It’s tough truly tough.  I want to do this for Lehna though.  I mean I want to  do this for myself but I truly need to do this for Lehna.  I need to show her that it’s possible to be healthy and set the example to her.  But any who… 

 

I thought maybe I could take pictures… of my GRADUAL change… LOL  there isn’t much of a change

Jan 2013



This is Week 2 (this is a new idea for me so I didn't take pictures week 1)



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