So I’m down 8 lbs. My official weigh – in is tomorrow but I know
that’s what I’m down so I thought that I would just publish it. I have been working like an animal. On Thursday I was sooooo stiff I kept falling
asleep all day. So I have to keep
working out at night b/c it makes me tired and I don’t want to be THAT tired at
work. Once I took a nap however I felt
WORLDS BETTER. I wasn’t as stiff
either. So I’m glad that my body is
finally getting the workout it needs. I
have to say that this is probably the hardest that I have ever worked out when
I exercise. I pour sweat! Which when I was doing couch to 5 K I would
sweat like a fool, but this is EVERY time.
So I know it’s working. I mean 8 lbs.
in two weeks isn’t bad. My routine takes
about 40 minutes total so it’s not really even too bad as far as time either it
just makes me REALLY tired.
By far the worst part about trying
to lose weight is the diet. I HATE
dieting and I’m not even calling this dieting.
I’m calling it tracking my
calories b/c honestly I can eat whatever the hell I want, I just have to be
responsible for it and when I’m out of calories I’m OUT of eating. I have gone to bed b/c I’m hungry and I don’t
want to eat. It just sucks. I mean I only get 1370 calories per day and
when you start breaking it down it isn’t very much. I love my coffee in the morning and that’s a
MAJOR issue b/c it’s like 150 calories once I add creamer and when I’m counting
calories I’m like, do I NEED this… and my tired body goes… yep yep you need to
wake up in the morning… but it’s as much calories as a can of coke… damn creamer.
But your soooooo good. I have
tired the 0 calorie coffee flavoring and it’s “okay” but it kind of adds a
strange taste to it, so I’m working through that. But that would help b/c it’s just empty
calories… I hate that… It’s all about
the choices. But at least I’m working
out so maybe my body will work it off… at
least I hope!
When we were working out this last
week we did a totally different routine and let me tell you I’m WEAK. I’m trying to really stay positive but mercy
sakes when you are supposed to do pull ups and it feels like you have bricks
tied to your feet… it makes me a little sad.
I hate that I feel the way I do and have NO energy to play with the kids
or want to take them to the park so I am working on changing. It’s just a mountain to climb. It feels SOOOOOOO far away. I keep trying to think about all the things I
will be able to say that I did once I do lose the weight but trying to stay
positive is a struggle. It’s like in my
mind I’m like ‘how did I let myself get to this point’ and then at the other
side I’m like ‘okay dude get it together b/c your clothes are WAY too tight.’ I
know it’s about baby steps and it’s about changing my life. Not an easy feat and I don’t want to be too
hard on myself b/c that won’t get me to my goal. I still want my clothes to start feeling
really big when I put them on. I love
that feeling but I’m not to that point.
Dang it. I know I know it’s ONLY
BEEN TWO WEEKS. But I’ve lost 8 lbs. you’d
think… but it’s all stuff that has to come and it didn’t take over night to get
here. It’s tough truly tough. I want to do this for Lehna though. I mean I want to do this for myself but I truly need to do
this for Lehna. I need to show her that
it’s possible to be healthy and set the example to her. But any who…
I thought maybe I could take
pictures… of my GRADUAL change… LOL
there isn’t much of a change
Jan 2013
This is Week 2 (this is a new idea for me so I didn't take pictures week 1)
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