Guess What!

Sooooo this girl is going to have another baby.  So we are on the back burner again...  but all is not lost I'm going to stay focused and only gain 10 lbs this pregnancy...  then kill it when it starts to come off.  I am waiting clearance from the Doctor to still work out to Maintain that's my goal.  :)  So I'm being good I cut out pop and I'm going to resist. 

Mountains... I think NOT!

So here’s the score. 

 

I actually weight 258 it was better than I had hoped but still not the most exciting thing in the world to accept either.  I have decided that it’s time to get serious.  And I think you’ll truly believe that once I do my update for this week…

 

So I joined Curves in Wabash.  I have really been debating what workout plan I should do or what I should try or return to… and I decided that I was going to go back to an old thing that I did before and it was successful.  But the reason why I stopped is b/c I got married… So I’m thinking that this might be successful.  At least I’m hoping to be successful. 

 

So I am to a rocky start.  I have been working towards staying under my calories via Lose It! But I have to admit we had a HUGE snow storm so it was DIFFICULT!  I baked a couple of times, and we had some strange meals and that kind of thing.  Working out was a little tough.  I exercised on Saturday (which I did my running).  Then Sunday I had no motivation, Monday no motivation, and Tuesday No motivation.  I am a sorry case aren’t I?  I did shovel and we did sled for a bit on Sunday & Monday so that of course helps tremdously.  But you know it was running.  So I’m working out tonight, Thursday, & Friday at Curves after work to get back in the swing of it.  At least it will be returning to work out.  I just have to stay on top of it.  If I work out 3-4 times per week I think that’s successful.  I would be even happier if it was 6 times a week, but I’m working on getting on that.  This is a lifestyle change and I know that If I change too much too fast then it won’t stick and lord know I need it to stick.  So this week as far as pictures.  I did update them.  There really aren’t too many changes.  And I realize that everything is SO dark.  But what can you do. 
Okay this picture loading feature is not currently working on this site... I will try again to post later... so for right now... just picture what I look like last week... 

 

So it’s a slow turning wheel and it’s nuts but we will get there.  One good choice over another…  Or shoot one poor choice over another.  But it’s an ongoing battle that well I have had most of my life so I can only make steps in the right direction and unfortunately it’s going to feel like baby steps, but that’s what it is.  I just can’t get frustrated.  LOL  Right!  Stay focused.  Eye on the prize and we’ll get there.  Target weight 170.  Only 88 more to go…   THIS WILL NOT FEEL LIKE A MOUNTAIN.  THIS WILL NOT FEEL LIKE A MOUNTAIN… THIS WILL NOT FEEL LIKE A MOUNTAIN….  Just baby steps… baby baby baby steps.  I CAN get there!  Do it!

It Starts Over!

So we are starting over!  The knee has been a real pain in the ass but let me tell you I think I am going to be better then before.  So where do I start.  Well weight... unsure; my batteries in my scale has died.  So I have no idea of where I'm starting but my guess is somewhere around the 260s so let's call it 265 and then when I do get to weigh myself I will be able to update accurately.  I have joined curves.  I have to try this again mainly b/c my personal trainer is SOOOOO expensive and well I figured once I get the first 50 off then I will be able to go back to her to help me get the additional 40 off.  Well that's my thinking anyway.  So I will be working out during the day during my lunch hour or right after work.  I'm hoping that the days i have to work out after work that my family is supportive and picks up the slack when I need them too.  I'm planning on going there 3-4 days a week and I am going to run 3 days a week with my couch to 5K program WHICH I HAVE STARTED!  I am already done with week one.  But that's okay if I'm a little ahead b/c I'm WAY behind on the weight side.  So I'm rerecording my food in Lose It.  I HATE this part of this stuff.... it just is sucky.  I don't know why I hate it so much but I just hate it.  But that will help me be more aware.  I have found a new trick for water to make it not taste like crap.  I have started putting frozen fruit in my water and they work as ice cubes along with the ice and as the fruit defrosts it adds flavor to the water and by the end of the day it's really strong so it's not just plan water... but I know that just drinking plan water just won't cut it for me.  So this is Day one.  Again.  But hey we all have to start somewhere.  I want to finish this time, so my knee better just knock it's crap off and get healed b/c this girl is tired of being heavy.  I'm tired of having to shop and Lane Bryant.  I want to shop at a regular store and by regular size or shoot have a regular sized towel go around me.  My goal is 170.  So I'm not at 100 lbs but only 80 lbs to go.  Wish me luck!

ACL Surgery

Surgery is over and done with... now I'm on the healing stages.  I have been off crutches for two days.  I hobble around like a drunk person.  But I WILL be back... and blirpees you'd better look out b/c I'm going to be kicking some butt.  I'm thinking about looking for a mini to sign up for come late spring.  That way I'll have a goal.  But I am going to wait for a date to know WHEN I can return then start scheduling from there... Lord I hope it's soon b/c my diet has NOT been working with me... 

Totally sad

So the news on my knee.  I have torn my ACL.  An injury when football players get it takes them out for the entire season :(  I am more then bummed and I'm feeling really discouraged.  I feel like I was doing everything well and then one stupid thing and now I'm going to have to start all over again.  I asked the doctor what kind of time frame are we looking and he goes "several months" before I can return to regular activities.  Truly sucky!  I talked to my trainer last night and she is offering words of encouragement and telling me that when I'm cleared that she will work with me and get me back to where I was before.  She said to really concentrate on the diet part of my weight loss and just that in check.   So portion everything.  I am not so good at that Vern.  I have to admit I HATE DIETING.  Just the sound of the word diet and I give up.  I had the motivation to do it now and I'm now on hold.  It's crappy.  But I guess I've had many opportunities before this to get myself into shape and should have taken advantage of that time before hand.  However I didn't so this is where I am; frustrated and discouraged!  I really wanted to change my life and my weight and now I'll have to start back in square one.  I have a feeling the weight is going to creep back on and I'll be starting all over but I will do my best to not gain during this part of my down time, but I don't it will be difficult.  So updates soon to come I'm sure. 

Seriously!

I'm thinking that I'm not supposed to be skinny after all... or even healthy.  I blow out my knee really? 

Seriously I'm going to take this personal now.  I am going to get this recovery period down to almost nothing.  I talked to my trainer and she said that she can still get me working on my stuff I just have to be More creative.  :(  Seriously.  Damn Trampoline!!!

Exercise – Diet what the heck are those things?

Okay so I don’t do the diet thing.  I have said that before even counting calories I hate.  But I do take notice of what I’m eating and make appoint to have smaller portions and I skip my normal eats.  I mean I have done the dieting thing so much I have a pretty good handle on what I can eat and can’t.  I mean I have been having breakfast every morning and everything which I know helps with weight loss.  I mean if there was a quiz on how to lose weight I would pass.  Now actually LOSING weight that’s the difficult part.  I’m educated on HOW to do it, it’s just doing it that’s a totally different story. 

 

So This week I have taken a big giant step backwards.  My exercising was down to a major minimal.  I skipped Saturday (that was my normal day of rest)  Sunday I was sick and Monday I still wasn’t feeling good so I skipped.  Tuesday however we got switched from our normal workout day b/c Tait is farther south in Indy this week so he wasn’t able to get back in time to work out and I really like working out with him.  So we are doubling up next week, but the mean time it meant I could sit at home and do nothing!  We did take a walk and took the kids to the park but I did more sitting rather than walking.  Wednesday I DID work out.  I ran 2 miles so I was excited about that!  Thursday NOTHING.  And tonight probably nothing as I didn’t get up this morning and our evening is pretty booked.   So sucky.  On the scale I was down two lbs, but last week I was a workout maniac.  So that means next week as I’m getting back on track I will be frustrated.  FREAKING MOUNTAIN why must you be sooooo big! 

 

So I’m going to stay positive or at least try and stay positive and get back on for Saturday and Sunday and resume my work out schedule.  I’m behind one day on Couch to 5 K b/c I only have 3 days to do it and I can’t get those fit in before my next “week” begins.  So not really BEHIND but not on schedule either. 

 

Dang… 

 Week 5  - Down 2 lbs